this is my last journal entry.

my parents have chose to make it forbidden. theyve even threatened to check everything on the internet i do update. they dont even want me to read anyone elses! oh fuck them. theyre nuts!

well...its been fun.

until we meet again....

</3karastarr

well. i cant really do this at home so i might as well do it at school. im in activity at mr. carr's room. im not really supposed to be here. heh. mr. tri wouldve killed me if i was late. oh whatever. i have math next...oh just kill me. kris got back so thats cool...i saw her in the hallway. i also saw dave and...well...i dont know. woo hoo. i am going to see big fish tonight with bree and kris and courtney and i think thats it. so yeah. hranj is such a freak...hes talking about spanking a monkey. well im done.

[lets lift you up so we can see how fast you fall]

</3karastarr 

well. im not supposed to be on this xanga thing. whateverr i dont care. today was shit...like every other day. kris is back! woop woop. yeah this is the longest ive ever gone with out talking to her but its all good. :sigh: a lot of stuff is confusing me and i dont know how to sort it all out... im just lying down and waiting for it all to come to me, i guess. god, im lame. and bored. so laterr.

[dancing on your grave]

</3karastarr

i think i died. well, whatever. im not supposed to be doing this journal thing...my parents are full of shit so it scares them. my mom thinks im all angsty and stuff...so what if i am?! fuck you! god, those evil people. school sucked. woo hoo. work did too. and i have to work again tomorrow. why am i working? why do i just let people shove me around with other peoples shitty kids? why am i letting myself be so...used? im so tired of ranting, and i realize your all tired of hearing it. so. yeah. im done.

im so confused.

</3karastarr

god, im so confused. oww my poor head. geez. i realized something today that i had sort of realized, but i seriously realized it today. and....well, it doesnt make any sense because nothing will ever go my way. i hate thinking about love and that shit because its so pointless. im never going to find someone like that, ever. never ever ever. and im pretty much over it. i dont even give a shit. grr. i dont even know.

fuck. my mom just said im  'banned from the computer'. she doesnt understand the xanga thing. and now she says 'you better pray to god theres no 'C' on your report card.' oh fuck you! im so out of here. i swear. one more time, im just going to leave. fucking shit.

</3karastarr